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I Feel Good As Hell!

“Good as Hell” by Paul Rey

Lately I’ve been focusing on myself and finding the value of my self-worth. I am starting to finally realize how much I am worth. For the first time in a long time, I am actually putting myself first! I can actually visualize myself having a future.

Now, this doesn’t mean that my depression and anxiety is fixed. I’m still a work in progress. I’m still having doubts and insecurities. I still have dark moments. However, this post is just me acknowledging the fact that I am ALIVE!! I’m FINALLY starting to have HOPE for the future!!

The other day, Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson, tweeted an article that talked about how he dealt with his depression in the past. In this video, there are a few words that he said that really got my attention.

“Hold onto that fundamental quality of faith. Have faith that on the other side of your pain is something good.”


I’ve always been treated as a second choice; everyone’s back up plan when their original plans didn’t work out. For so long I’ve felt like my life didn’t matter. I’ve always felt worthless and useless. I’ve spend so many years getting treated like a worthless person. For so many years I’ve taken it. I never learned to love myself.

I’m tired of being nice to really ungrateful people. My time is precious too and I’m giving it up to help you. If I give you my time, don’t waste it! I could be doing something else.


To the people that are actually helping me, THANK YOU!! I’m so grateful to have you in my life!

To the people that think it is okay to keep treating me like I’m worthless, SCREW YOU!! I don’t need you or your negativity in my life!

To anyone reading this, if you are struggling with depression or any mental illness, remember that things will get better. You are not alone! You don’t have to deal with this alone! There is help out there; you just have to take that first step. Trust me; things will get better once you ask for help.

If you are looking for help, go here. The website To Write Love On Her Arms is a really great site that is always helping people that are struggling with a mental illness.

Remember to Always Keep Fighting! Until next time!


One thought on “I Feel Good As Hell!

  1. Thank you so much for this blog post! I'm going threw simular problems (anxiety &depression) and I'm slowly but surely also trying to realize my worth and this was such a inspiring read! Keep on fighting also! We are all worth another day and another breath of life! 🙂 I am totally going to keep up with your blog I had no idea you blogged also!!!


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