Today marks one year since I last self-harmed. I honestly don’t know how to feel about that. Am I supposed to feel proud and happy that I chose not to hurt myself? Hurting myself shouldn’t even be an option.
I know I haven’t written anything in a while. I’ve just been really busy with school. Here’s what I’ve been up to.
I haven’t been myself lately. I’ve had some time off from school and it’s been really nice to just relax. But having all of this free time for myself is bad for me. Yes, it allows me to relax, but at the same time, it makes me lose my purpose. I think I lost my purpose a while ago. I honestly don’t know why I keep trying to push forward anymore. What’s my purpose? Did I have one at all? Nothing I do feels right anymore. I still feel lost. I still feel like I don’t belong in this world. I keep questioning myself on what I like and I never know the answer. There’s just so much going on in my mind right now.
Hello my fellow readers!
I want to start by apologizing for not making a blog post for the past two weeks. I’ve been a little busy with school. Now, on to the post.
“You’re alive. That means you have infinite potential. You can do anything, make anything, dream anything.” – Neil Gaiman
Yesterday I kept reminding myself that I’m still breathing. I’m still here fighting this battle. Yeah, it sucks that I have to fight this battle alone, but it is okay.
Lately I’ve been feeling a little stuck. Actually, I’m not really sure what I’ve been feeling. It’s just a mixture of feelings. It’s hard to describe. I thought I was holding in sadness, but I don’t think it’s that.
I feel like I’m finally starting to value myself. I feel like I’m starting to see the good in me. Is this what it feels like to love yourself? I know that I’m starting to let go of the past. I’m starting to see the best in me. I’m finding my self-worth.
Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!
For a while now, I’ve been wanting to write some short stories. I always get random ideas for stories, but never actually put it together. So, I decided to write a little something for today. I wanted to do something special. I’m not in love or anything, I’m just a hopeless romantic. This is a sort of short story that I had in mind about falling in love. Enjoy!