Today marks one year since I last self-harmed. I honestly don’t know how to feel about that. Am I supposed to feel proud and happy that I chose not to hurt myself? Hurting myself shouldn’t even be an option.
I know I haven’t written anything in a while. I’ve just been really busy with school. Here’s what I’ve been up to.
“You’re alive. That means you have infinite potential. You can do anything, make anything, dream anything.” – Neil Gaiman
Yesterday I kept reminding myself that I’m still breathing. I’m still here fighting this battle. Yeah, it sucks that I have to fight this battle alone, but it is okay.
Lately I’ve been focusing on myself and finding the value of my self-worth. I am starting to finally realize how much I am worth. For the first time in a long time, I am actually putting myself first! I can actually visualize myself having a future.
Now, this doesn’t mean that my depression and anxiety is fixed. I’m still a work in progress. I’m still having doubts and insecurities. I still have dark moments. However, this post is just me acknowledging the fact that I am ALIVE!! I’m FINALLY starting to have HOPE for the future!!